Wednesday, March 17, 2010

This seems all too familiar

I had a blog, once. Started it 5 years ago when I lived in Brazil. 5 YEARS ago, and deleted it in a rash of self preservation and embarrassment when my psychiatrist asked me why I felt the need to flaunt myself on the internet. Well, she didn't say flaunt, but that's what she meant, or at least, how it sounded.

Now, 2 1/2 years later, I no longer see that psychiatrist (or ANY psychiatrist, thank God) and I am starting again. This time I just want to put my art journaling out there. I have rediscovered my creative side in the last few years, remembering how much I enjoyed drawing and painting as a kid. I think that as I have invited God more fully into my life, I have come to embrace the artistic nature that I inherited from my mom. I am peeling back the layers of insecurity, shame, anger and depression to reveal more of the person I was supposed to be all along. My family, friends, and husband all deserve to know that person better. By the grace of God, art journaling is helping me do that.